:: jotting the lines ::

I have just made a decision to say byebye to my current job (can’t write the name out, as it may appear anytime on google).
I did not enjoy what I do.
I have told myself to work there for at least a year and see how it goes. Life might change later.

I guess I was wrong…
I was not performing due to continual sickness. It is draining me as I had to take medical leave almost every fortnight. I have seen 3 doctors throughout the past 4 weeks and might need to see another specialist tomorrow for further check-up. All the doctors have asked me the same question - “Are you under stress?”
Or could it be the ventilation that cause me ill? I wonder…

-_-” I don’t know how nice can my appraisal form be if I chose to stay on for another 3 months.

The longer I stay, the more I grieve about the contrast of my major and what I am doing now. The job functions are totally out of tracks, I am not doing what was told exactly during the interview. Reason is I am still a rookie, therefore have to learn from scratch. Now I reflect on what I had said in the past - ” I am willing to learn….”

Do I really mean what I say? Or I am picking on what to learn? Or… only learn what captured my interest?

Arghhhhh…..

Ok, I will finish my outstanding tasks and hand in a resignation letter.

I will start looking around.
hmmm..maybe should try applying to be a reporter. I am even determined to be one after the incident of being conned. Should I give it a try?

It may sound unwise to leave a job without receiving any job offers.

I appreciate if you give only positive comments, judgemental opinions are currently not welcomed now - this is to prevent myself from thinking too much and as a result, it will slow down my immune system and not helping me to recover faster.