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yoohoo!
Did you see my newly made header? So convinced to say “Vicky is beautiful”…kakakaka….
I know I am not only beautiful but photogenic also, it is an undeniable fact! haha

So have I said - I tendered my resignation letter on Tuesday. I felt the absolute calmness in heart, knowing that I have made the right decision at the right timing now. God is loving, He never fails. I have learnt a great yet not painful lesson (Thank God!!) through out the past few weeks. I was so eager and tempted to leave the workplace because I didn’t like its job functions, I didn’t like what I do. I was even reluctant to learn new things as the sickness had often dragged me down. I was upset about some mistakes I did, I questioned myself was I too dumb to complete my tasks or was I too careless or useless to fulfill my responsibilities. There were all kinds of negative thoughts attacking me. I tend to be more irresponsible to myself as the more I focus on the negative sides which I discovered later. The little voice was whispering to me,

“Is ok, you’re sick. No one would blame you for doing wrong. Didn’t you say you don’t like the job anymore? Quit….just quit…Is ok that you leave without a job. What for do you work still when you’re sick?”

I just kept hearing words like you’re weak, sick, ill… I was really tempted to leave as you can read from my previous blog. Blogging also serves its purpose to trace back your thoughts, the journals you/ I write can be very silly at times. It reflects our emotions, our thoughts or even our foolishness.

But before I handed the resignation letter long ago, I received an TXT msg from my cell group leader. She txted there, “Give thanks to the Lord for your job now. Go in the right timing, give your best in all you do. So only God can entrusts us for bigger things.” Amen! The words saved me from being foolish. I claimed on the words and really did my best even though mistakes still happened. Thank God now I am offered with a better job prospects.

A lot of us always wonder about God’s presence especially during their needy time.

” Where are you God? Answer me please…”

I realised it was my focus on the problems, the issues that hid away God’s voice. My problems seemed to speak louder than His voice. If only we soften ourselves and humbly come before Him, He shall reveal Himself to us.