20th May 2005

Fearful Not…

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Hooray! I just got my car 2 days ago. My wish finally comes true. I got my license at the age of 19 but I barely got a chance to drive. My parents drive a car and my sister has her own car too, yet I was asked not to drive any of their cars. Perhaps, they are paranoid of me getting their cars into road accident, since then I have kept myself from driving. I was made to believe all the negative views of myself.

‘Do I know how to cut into other lanes?’
‘How do I park a car without kissing others’ car?”
My mind was full with ‘How this, how that…..’ I was really fearful of driving on the road. I didn’t even dare to visualize myself driving on a messy roundabout. Because I shivered when every time I think about that. I went through a proper driving test and got my license legally if you ever wondered how I got it.

I have never had a problems like now before, I find driving as big stumbling block in my life, why I do always have fear of driving? Why my heart beats faster than normal when every time I visualise myself driving on a highway, a flyover and worse still, a roundabout?

I wanted to get out of this fear and this anxiety. I need to grow up, imagine this is really embarrassing to tell others ‘Hey, I am fearful of driving’

How would others think about me? Faithless O lil child of God who doesn’t trust God could give her the ability to drive with no fears?

Please don’t laugh at my weakness. At least I am bold enough to share my weakest point with you.

Now, will you pray for me?

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  1. 1 On May 20th, 2005, Mel MALAYSIA Windows XP Mozilla Firefox 1.0.1 said:

    Of course I’ll pray for you Vicky! I proud of that fact that even you didn’t get to drive as often as you would love to, you picked up the courage to drive still! That’s the first step, but a big step. :D May th good Lord send His guardian angels to protect you on the road. You’ll be fine, I’m sure!

    p/s: If all else fails…remember the POWER of the signal hehehe cut lanes, round about, fight for parking space…use it! Applicable to most tasks on the road! :p

    Love ya!
    ::MeL*::

  2. 2 On May 21st, 2005, julian MALAYSIA Windows XP Mozilla Firefox 1.0.4 said:

    I’m glad you got your license legally :P

    Hey, give yourself a chance; it’s a new car and it’s a “new” experience as well. Frankly, praying isn’t gonna make you a better driver. It’s okay to pray for protection and covering, sure, but the only way to improve is to take it small steps.

    Drive around quiet neighbourhoods; get used to your vehicle; learn how to handle it. When you’re ready, try a busier road. And so on.

    Nobody ever said you had to be an ‘instant’ driving expert… and you don’t.

    I estimate I’ve driven close to 1,000,000 km in my life. You could say I’m a pretty good driver - but I never forget the responsibility that comes with handling a vehicle on public roads.

    The only good drivers are careful drivers; show-offs are total idiots, and are a potential road statistic.

  3. 3 On May 22nd, 2005, sam MALAYSIA Windows XP Internet Explorer 6.0 said:

    Hi my dear! I’m so glad you have a car!!!

    See, God had his amazing timing, and I so admire how you never gave up. Praise God!

    But I know you’re thinking:

    “Okay God, one major thing down, one more to go. Don’t take your time ya.”

    We all know what I’m saying here, don’t we….. ^^

  4. 4 On May 23rd, 2005, Vicky Au Yong MALAYSIA Windows XP Mozilla Firefox 1.0.3 said:

    Mel, Ju, Sam….It’s very touching to know
    “Hey,I have people out there who care 4 me!”

    I will be very careful as I drive.

    Ju, I have already started driving to work and coming back from work. I overcome the fear of driving out from Jln Kuantan in joining with the main road (Jln Tun Razak). I have also conquered the fear of driving into KLCC tunnel and connecting with Jln Kia Peng.

    Prayers can help, especially asking God to give me alertness and quick to reflect and know how to avoid/ defend in driving.

    Thanks for all your prayers and I shall be driving more often!

  5. 5 On May 26th, 2005, faith MALAYSIA Windows XP Mozilla Firefox 1.0 said:

    H3y V1cky!

    Our prayers are with you! Im glad you’re overcoming your fears( God never meant for us to fear anything!) and gaining more confidence.
    I really enjoyed sitting in your car yesterday (thx for the ride ah..)
    except it was a bit bumpy in the back….

    haha, just joking!

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