:: jotting the lines ::

Ouch, time flies! Hillsong is having her annual conference - Strength’05 tomorrow till Friday, 8 July. This time of last year, I was still travelling in Cairns - Queensland, a tropical state. I boarded on a morning flight to Sydney just to join the big crowd - Passionate’ 04. It was cold when I disembarked at Sydney airport. I took a train to Parramatta station where I would be meeting my other 2 girl friends - Huei Weun and Chase. Things were quite organised as how it was planned. We attended the night rally where thousands and thousands of people jam packed Sydney Superdom. I couldn’t recall how many people could fit into Superdom, but all I saw was no single spare seat left in the stadium.

Jentezen Franklin, Joyce Meyer, Paul Scanlon, Frank Damazio were invited to speak in Passionate 04. I’m truly blessed by their teaching, especially on Joyce Meyer’s. Her teaching was so down to earth. She preached about birds, the difference between eagles and chicken. Any clue of the difference? Well, one is fiercely commited to what they prey, another one running around the flock ‘bok bok bok’. She had also illustrated different kind of Christian around us. There are ‘kukubird’ that is irresponsible, ‘peacock’ that likes to impress others, ‘parrot’ that likes to talk and mimic one and another, ‘crow’ the pestering eagle, cunning bird and ‘chicken’ which is fat and lazy bird. All of us have to pay attention on who we spend our time with. We can either become an eagle soaring up high or we can be one of those birds. Of course I am also blessed with other speakers like Jentezen, Darlene Zschech, the senior pastors of Hillsong - Brian and Bobbie Houston. They are all fantastic people. Our hearts were ignited by the powerful Holy Spirit.

So what about now? Hope you won’t question my faith level. I believe every one of us faces challenges every day. I had my own struggles too. Just while half way writing this entry, I drove to the nearest restaurant and had dinner with my family. As I returned to my car, the eye catching dented mark on my car’s bumper immediately raised my anguish. I was extremely angry and nobody dare to talk to me that time. I was angry at this reckless driver who doesn’t seem to bother about the whole incident. Forget about the courtesy note, Malaysian driver won’t do. I just have no idea why couldn’t s/he reverse to come out from the parking lot.

I didn’t know how should I react. But one thing for sure is the tears filling up my eyes, my heart ache for the ugly mark. It wasn’t my fault at all but shit happens in life. I felt like cursing the fella, which I almost did. Hey, I lost control of my brain at that time. I don’t know what should I do to it. Take my babe to repair? Then there goes another hundred bucks.

Perhaps I can enlighten you with this chart, I don’t have to do it.

But I’m trying to make this blog as naked an open book as possible. Huei Weun, thanks for your supports and encouragement. You’re a lovely sister to me though you’re quite a distance from Malaysia now. Huei Weun also has blogged about the memory of attending Passionate 04 , she talked a fair bit of me there.

Well, I guess my next entry will be a self-publicity or self- promotion to get a life partner. -_-”