8th November 2005

Disappointing moments

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I never had a good relationship with my mom before. Why not?

It always turn out to be a disaster or fire warring when each time we start to have conversation. If I was asked “Did you give your best to be a daughter?”

The answer is ‘No’. I do not know how to start a conversation as she is extremely defensive towards every word I say. So do I. My mom is self-pity type, she always tells us she is not worthy. She always say she is not educated therefore she does not know how to express herself well in the right word. But I denied the reason she gave.

Just a while ago we had dinner together, it was supposed to be happy yuppy time we can spend together but it turned out to be another lukewarm silent war again.

We were making fun with my dad’s curly hair, sis, dad and I were all laughing of the jokes we cracked. Then she just turned us off and said ‘He must have liked some girl out there’. Gosh, how can she say that? Even his daughters believe dad just want to change his outlook once a while. So I said ‘Why are you so serious about it?’
The reply she gave was ‘Yes, everything I say is wrong…and everything you say is right.’ I was stunned by her reply.

No matter how great I treat others, how righteous I think I was; I would still think I fail as a Christian.
Shame…it’s a shame.

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  1. 1 On November 9th, 2005, hueiweun AUSTRALIA Windows XP Internet Explorer 6.0 said:

    hey…You’ve not failed. And don’t put yourself in either misery or shame because God’s word speaks of you as His precious one, His beloved One for we are more than conquerors through Christ Jesus. Although it seemed as though the situation has made you felt the opposite way, keep in mind that God’s word is the truth and NOTHING can separate us from that truth, that Love. Your mom might be going through so hard times, some changes in life. WHat my mom went through was menopause that I didn’t quite seemed to understand at the first place. Give her some time, give yourself some time. I’m sure everything will turn out fine at the end of the day.

  2. 2 On November 11th, 2005, Michael UNITED KINGDOM Windows XP Mozilla Firefox 1.0.7 said:

    LOL! Now I know where you get your moodiness from…

  3. 3 On November 12th, 2005, julie MALAYSIA Windows XP Internet Explorer 6.0 said:

    Hey, you know… both my mum and I are Christians, and yet, when I was in my teenage years, we could never get along… many times, we argued until both of us cried and my father always had to play the middle man.
    I always believed that she loved my bro more than me… whether that was true or not, I don’t know till this day…
    However, our relationship really improved a lot when I started work, and even improved more when I have Hannah. Now that I experience some of her experience, I start to understand her better… and I love Hannah so much, I can’t believe that any mother doesn’t love their child at all.
    We still struggle at times but things are getting better… hope you will also see the same improvement as you continue to make the effort with your mum. In the end, it’s all worth it.

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