It’s You Who Really Matters
What would happen if I suffer from cancer? What would happen if I don’t stand a chance to live anymore? Ok, this is not cursing myself having disease. I suppose I am under tremendous stress lately that cause me having nightmares. The dream was so real, filled with details as if I had been in the operation theater to have my trapdoor of skull opened. I remember I asked the surgeon to hold on for a minute so I could send a sms to my special someone. The content is somewhere in between “Please don’t wait for me” or “Hold on till I’m awake”. I was anesthetized after that, losing all my body senses before they shave my head. I couldn’t remember other details than that but it’s indeed a freaky dream.
I believe I was overwhelmed with recent happening i.e. life, death, work issues, family matters, relationship struggles have all come and hit me hard at the same time. Ok, let aside the work. I can always convince myself to talk only business at work with no personal emotions attached. Family, hope was dashed and my wounds need some time off for healing.
I know I shouldn’t let others’ burdens trouble me. It is always easier said than done. Many of times I just couldn’t pull myself out from being emotional and that’s no doubt about my weakness. I empathize with them, of what they have gone through in life. Instead of feeling bad or sorry for the person, I should lay it all to God’s hand and have faith in which He will definitely make the path straight.
Thank God, Christmas never fails to realign myself back to Him. Let aside all issues, Christ is the one who really matters the most now.
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