26th June 2007

Getting Married 07.07.07

 Getting Married on 07.07.07 !

Go Vicky Go

3 years ago I said to myself “You’ll get married on 07.07.07, that will be the perfect timing to wear the diamond wedding band!”

Here now on 26 June 07, another 1 and a half week counting down on this special day. And yet I am still holding no one’s hand while waiting for Mr. Right’s appearance.

I’ll wait patiently, wait with perserverance and hope.

Wait until 08.08.08, if not, then 09.09.09. If I still can’t get hitched by then, I will still wait for 10.10.10, 11.11.11 or even 12.12.12!

I miss you already 07.07.07. :((

God, believe you are already intervening now.

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21st June 2007

They say …

They say, you must not let the culture tell you what not to do. 

They say, you must be brave enough to express your fondness towards the man.

They say, you should listen to your heart and follow what it says.

I say, there are too much confusing voices. And I don’t know whose voice I should really follow.

~X(   –> %-(  –> :((

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21st June 2007

Rewinding The Moments We Spent Together

This is not our first time being apart from each other.

You left the school and we were no more school mates. That year, we were only 15. And ever since then, we were never together in the same college nor university. 

And few years later,  you flew to Melbourne to further your studies and I stayed back at KL to gain more working experience. The letters you wrote to me, they are still well-kept in my treasure box. In 2003, we united again at Melbourne. Do you remember where was it that we met after absence of a few years? It was in my university, you and Jerm came and look for me. The daring experience of looking for place to stay was unforgettable. I admire your courage speaking to my landlord.

The loneliness was unbearable. You later moved out to CBD and I moved into 125 at Drummond. How strange isn’t? It’s always in & out we encounter each time. 

Few glorious years spent in Melbourne, you have your peers and I have my church mates as support. You spent your night life clubbing and I spent my weekends tour guiding. We both have had different priorities in our lives, for even today.  That year had also brought the curtain down on our Uni life. We came back to our country and started our first permanent job. You were lucky, having a job awaited you after your graduation. I was still struggling finding a right job. There and then, we would come out for drinks for catch up. The mutual understanding we have amongst us have often left many question marks behind. 

Now that you’re leaving again. And I don’t know when only can we reunite.

We are still good friends even today in spite of a few times being apart from each other. Why were we still getting along well all these years? Is it because we are only surficial close? Or on the contrary, we know each other too well that we knew we are just not compatible at all. Or is it there is no false expectation formed even in the very beginning. The hope and wish of being more than merely a friend were not developed in the past and present. 或许就是因为我们彼此没有期待与遐想,之所以这样我们的友情才能像细水源源流长。

Now you’re leaving again. For very first time, I wasn’t being expressive enough to give you a goodbye hug. The aging factor have refrained me from being ‘physically expressive’ now. I’m clueless this time of when you’ll be returning home. I have no idea when can we see each other again, face to face. I’ll miss the dinners, coffees, laughters and all the joys we had together.

May God bless you with a clear and sound mind to be able to differentiate what is right and wrong. And give you the guidance to continue to pursue your vision and goals.

Trying not to be mushy again >_<

Take care and stay healthy.

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17th June 2007

All The Best, Kim Han!

I recently received a few requests from friends asking me to blog and dedicate a post for them.

So I thought “Ok, perhaps this is a good time to write something special for you.”

Is your heart beating faster and faster now, scrolling down the screen can’t wait to see if it is true?

Ok, I’ve never really openly blogged about my friend because I don’t feel good getting them involved or exposed in the public. I’d break this rule this time since this person is so full of himself, overly confident of his appearance and a typical narcist. And I know he will surely get more popularity with his name published in google, no?

So here it goes to you, Mr. Sim Kim Han in remembering our 12 years of friendship.

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I googled on his name ”Kim Han”. Too bad, I didn’t get a good result since his given name is associated with the Koreans. So with a bit more effort, I managed to refine the search results by putting together with his surname “Sim Kim Han”. I was shocked seeing the terrifying search results as his names are tagged with some photos that may cause disturbance to some viewers. Aiks! I wonder if he ever cares how others would perceive him after looking at the photos. Nevermind, that’s really none of my business to care.

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I am not sure how I could love him and hate him the same time for the past 12 years! He could make the most illogical request and behave extremely disgustful in front of ME! He likes to frame me in front of our friends and said I’m the cause of delaying him to be late, at most times! He likes to burp in the car everytime after meals because he claimed he got a weak stomach. He could twist the right and wrong all over. Shit you not, big time talk cock champion! Don’t worry, he still has some self control and won’t simply show his aweful moments to others just yet.

In spite of all his dark sides, he is nonetheless someone you can admire and befriended with. He is a people person, has great public relationship skill. He is the most courageous person I ever seen. Never afraid to get out of his comfort zone to take whatever challenges come! He loves his family members, has sense of great responsibility towards his work. If you need someone to spare for happy hour, he will be the most ideal candidate for you. Well he does not drink & drive.

Sigh, people come in season and go in season. C’est la vie baby! I’m so going to miss you, my movie & yum cha partner.

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Wishing you every success for the days to come!

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14th June 2007

Trust In The Dark

 closed eyes crossed arms

I cross my arms over my chest, close my eyes and lean backward. Will you catch me from falling?

I wonder.

When the day I close my eyes, I choose to believe what I can’t see and learn to feel I must trust you even in the dark. Even when I’m falling too.

There must be a better choice than having doubts in you.

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